try this! it takes a little while to load, but it's pretty accurate. These were my results. (They're long, so if you don't read them, I'll understand)

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you.

The present situation, not of your making, is forcing you to compromise. You will have to hold back and forgo some of your hopes, dreams and aspirations.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

Resentment and stress, due to your present circumstances and/or your unfulfilled emotional needs, have produced considerable anxieties. You would like to get away from it all to somewhere that could be the personification of sympathy and understanding. That 'somewhere' could be close by: relax and let go - take a deep breath and look around - the situation may not be as bad as it seems.

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Being sick really sucks a lot. I was sooo sick yesterday. I had some 24-hour flu. ugh, it was horrible. Feeling much better today though. :) Ok, that's it for now. :)

OK, so boys are dumb, and I've decided that I just don't care anymore. You know, I don't need them, I will keep myself entertained. I don't care that every single one of my friends now has a boyfriend. I do not need one. (rather, don't want one at this point in time) These past two days it has been SOOOOO nice outside. Yesterday I babysat, and took Sophie (my charge, lol, who is about 5 1/2 months old) for a nice walk in her stroller. I was beautiful. And today was even nicer, Syd (a friend) and I went putt-putting (she beat me :( ) And then it was just so beautiful that I threw my bathing suit top on, and went outside in my shorts to soak up some sun. it was soooo relaxing.

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Exboyfriends ruin everything. I'm never dating again. no contact with the opposite sex, that's it. I can't go anywhere without seeing him, or hearing about him. he's better friends with my friends than I am. GAH!!!!! I HATE HIM!

BOYS!!!!!!!!!! WHEEEEE! ok, that's all for now. you'll get an update if there's anything to update. (hehehe, I'm sweet and innocent, right? . . . why are you giving me that look? you know I'm innocent . . . muahahaha)

Do you have any idea how hard it is to force yourself to school when the only class you have is band? Alas, I did not make it to school AGAIN. ALthough, I will have to start attending on these days, otherwise my band grade will suffer. My mom and i had a nice chat last night, and we were talking till like 1:00. I have to work on this stupid PIG (aka Participation in Government) project that's due next week. :( I keep putting it off, and it's a big yucky paper. I'll probably end up doing it all on memorial day or something. poop on procrastination! I did go out to breakfast/lunch (but not brunch) with my parents today. That was nice. And you know those veggie burgers that burger king now supports, those are QUITE tasty, let me tell you. mmmm

Ahh, last night I saw the movie Eyes Wide Shut, on HBO (one of them, anyway, we have 10 or something like that). My GOD, was that a strange film! I have seen some weird movies in my time, but this one takes the cake. Now, I really liked it, but it was not the graphic porn that some people made it out to be. Still, I finished watching with my mouth open and eyes in a very confused state . . . it certainly wasn't any worse than that mexican movie I saw a few weeks ago, y tu mama tambien . . .

ok, so now something is weird with the formatting . . . do the problems never cease? sheesh! I didn't even touch the template, except to fix the comments. oh well, just something more for me to work on. :)

WHEEEE! I finally fixed the comment link! It's all fixed! So comment away!!! :) I know you want to! go ahead . . . :)

Ok, this is from a couple of days ago, and I tried to post it, and It wouldn;t work. So, if it's already on here (twice) then once again, I am sorry. :)

OK, so I have come up with a new philosophy. (BTW- it has been two months since josh broke up with me, and I am graduating in 6 weeks. Oh yeah, and I made my schedule for next year and I'm taking intro to philosophy and latin! woo! more on that to come.) So, my new philosophy: If I don't think about sex, hear about it, talk about it, hear others talking about it, or see it on tv or at the movies, then I will make it until college. If not, I will die. Now, several people have said this is impossible, but I am unfortunately finding it more possible than someone to actually do it with. So I must never think of sex again! (hahaha)

A WHITE Dragon Lies Beneath!

I took the Inner Dragon online quiz and found out I am a White Dragon on the inside. If there ever was an apparition of balance, power and reclusive intelligence, my Inner Dragon is it. Whites are a fairly common dragon and are considered one of two harmonious dragons. My antithesis is the evil Black Dragon.



My Inner Dragon likes to think things out, plot against enemies, and look down upon the world from the highest mountain peaks. My favorable attributes are the Day, the Sun, truth, a positive attitude, and helpful magic. Humans only need fear me when they stray into my domain without proper tribute. Of course, that tribute would probably be a cake the size of a Volkswagen, but hey, if they wanted to move through my turf they should have brought it, right? If someone ever really wanted a fight I'd be an impressive opponent, considering I pack a breath weapon combination of Fire and Lightning. Even the nicest dragons can do some serious damage.

success!!!! I have finished the color of the links. Now, I know it may be a little hard to read under the archived section, but I think it's the best I'm going to get, considering I have light, dark, and medium backgrounds that the text goes onto. :) Next step? Get the date and "welcome to" sections a new color. :) and I am *so* crossing my fingers that the commenting will be back up soon!

ok, all the colors are done now, but the links need to be fixed. I know they're hard to read in some places right now, but just deal. k? :)

Hmm, I am in some serious need. The feeling of being single for two months is really starting to hit. grr. college is only 3 months away, can I really go 5 months? probably, it's bound to happen some time in my life, right? grrr.

WEEEE!!!!! I had a very . . . interesting time tonight. :) ANd I will enlighten you all. :) Me, Lisa, Katie, Chrissy, and Syd all had a girls' night out tonight, and it was very fun. First we went to Primitive Impressions (local piercing place) because katie wants to get her clit pierced. We talked to Jason the extremely cool owner/peircer there, and got all enlightened about the genital piercings. It sounded kinda cool . . . I'll hafta look into it. SO then we went to Java Joe's, coffee place, and played pool for an hour. THEN we saw this really really awesome movie called Y tu mama tambien at the little . It was extremely hot and sexy which of course, I loved. So then everything is fine, and we're driving home, and with 4 other people in the car, and it being midnight, I wasn;t exactly paying a whole hell of a lot of attention. I was in the middle of running a red light (no other cars in SIGHT) and katie screams at the top of her lungs STOP . So I slam on my breaks, and manage to stop practically in the middle of the intersection. And then the light turns green, and I start going, but my car won't accelerate. (now, I was having problems with the fuel pump before which made me not accelerate, but that was fixed) ANd I'm thinking, what the hell is going on? So I get to the next light, maybe 1/2 a mile down, and I go to step on my brake, and OH! It's already all the way down! So I'm like what the hell now? SO I pull over on a side road, and try and figure out what's wrong. Basically, I have no clue, so I called my parents who happen to my 3 hours out of town for the weekend. They didn't know what was wrong, and told me to call my uncle, who works with cars and lives near where I was. SO I call him, and end up going over there. Now, being the dumbass that I am, what happened was that the cover to my fuse box which is right in that area below my steering wheel came partially detached, and was hanging down. When I slammed on my brakes, they got stuck behind the fuse box cover. So my uncle fixed it and I took all my friends home, and that was the end of my oh-so-fun-and-exciting night! yay

Ok, so you can actually read my blogs now. this is good. it's still not exactly how I want, but again, you can READ it. :) and I don't know what's going on with the commenting . . . so I guess I will have to live in fear that you don't still love me a little while longer . . .

ugh! sorry about the varieties of color. makes things interesting!!! hopefully comments will be back up soon!

You are Country! Hopelessly smitten with a bunch of no-good two-timing bastards, you are Country music. You are a sweet and honest person most of the time... too bad those close to you aren't. Your main theme is angst, broken hearts, and general mistreatment by those you love. whether they are truly bastards or you do something to provoke this is not clear, but one thing's certain: you are tired of having your feelings toyed with.

Take the what music genre are you quiz by PsychosisX!

ok, so maybe I'm not so excited about the country part (don't get me wrong, I listen to my share of country) but this is indeed me to a T. :) And again,I'd like to apologise for the color and lack of comments, but I haven't had time to fix stuff!

OK, so things look a little funny right now. sorry about that. I'm editing some stuff. I don't have time to finish right now, but hopefully it'll be done soon!

AHHHHHHH why did I try and switch templates? never never never do that again unless you're fluent in html! problems problems problems!

Got a new template from a blog skins site (can find the link at the here