I tried to post soemthing the other day (not like it really matters, cuz who reads this thing anymore anyways?) but it went kablooey. So, here's the gist of what i said: I just gotback from Falcon Ridge, and would go back in the blink of an eye. (on this note, I have refused to cut off my wristband, b/c it would simply be admitting I'm home. if it's still on, I can put in one of my new cds, and close my eyes, and pretend i'm on the hill.) I'm having my wisdom teeth out today, and I think out of everything I'm most nervous about my IV, b/c the last time I had one (when I was in the hospital in september) they blew my vein, which really hurt, and I had a huge bruise on my hand. anyway, that's it. ttfn!

blog? what's this? I have a blog? ohh, yes. I seem to have forgotten in the past two weeks. oh well, I;m sure nobody reads it anyway! nothing is going on in my life. orientation on mon. and tues, FALCON RIDGE in 12 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mosquito bites are evil, but camp songs are fun! ::singing and clapping::
Flea
Flea Fly
Flea Fly Mosquito
Calamine, Calamine, Calamine Lotion
Oh, no, not the Calamine Lotion
Itchy, Itchy, Scratchy, Scratchy, got one on my backy backy. ooh-y, ooh-y owie owie wish it'd go away!
Quick! get the bug spray, think it went that-a way!
SHHHHHHHH

Wow . . . it has been a LONG ASS week. Saturday was graduation . . . then camp early sunday morning. camp was fun, but not nearly as amazing as last year. I was sad to leave, but happy to be home. and now i am EXHAUSTED. I can't believe I am even still awake right now . . .

::sigh:: people are dumb, and I hate them. . . . on a happy note, I got my camp stuff today, and I'm not in the same cabin as last year, *pout* but hopefully I'll still be with my friends. anyway, it will be a good time. I also bought new books today, yay books! (i wonder when the day will come where you can d/l entire books, like mp3s.)

In a week I'll be at camp! I'm very very excited! I can't wait. graduation is 6 days away, not too sure how I feel about that, happy and sad. every time I see some graduation type thingy on tv though I start bawling, and then am forced to change the channel. But camp makes me feel happy. And Falcon Ridge is just over a month away. Lots of fun stuff to look forward to this summer. Oh yeah! I'm getting a guitar this week! yay! (i don't know how to play, but I'm gonna learn!)

you know what i've decided? Sex can be your best friend or your worst enemy. When you're having it, and it's good, you are the luckiest son of a bitch alive. but when you're not getting any, my god you wish you didn't know what you were missing!

omg- I'm done. my highschool career is officially over. no more classes, no more finals, a week, then graduation, and I'm done. wow . . .

I feel old. I bought a dirtdevil today, and it was exciting. this scares me.

Aha! I have come to a realization. I have not constantly been in a relationship most of my life b/c I have a "need to be needed" complex (ok, maybe I do) but because being single SUCKS! yup, that's it. the single life is not for me.

OK, now I have learned something about myself. (well, actually I already knew this, but I am having a rude awakening) I don't take well to change. I like things the way they are. I don't want them to change. (ok, maybe a little bit) ::whining:: i don't want to graduate. I am going to miss all my friends. Things will never be the same. No longer will I have a class of 13 people, that I have known and grown up with for the past 13 years. My graduating class will be 4,000 not 147. :( is it bad form to cry when accepting one's diploma? there are only two weeks left of my entire high school career. ::shudder:: scary . . .

::giggle:: I've decided I'm a Bohemian! YAY!

look, it's me AGAIN!

You are the lego woman! You are a rare find indeed! You are sassy, brilliant, and not to mention lookin' good! You are none other than the sexy lego woman! We can find you strolling the lego town shopping for all the latest lego fashions and then coming home to a low fat dinner and a bubble bath.

Take the "What Lego character are you?" test! by ctbx

hehe, fits me to a T.
which Episode II character are you?



Queen of Naboo. You could have a split personality - simply to hide who you really are. You are extremely polite and gentle. However, if needs be, you will take action and can be a very good leader. You have the power to make people believe in you - use this power. The one you love could also end up being the one you hate.

Am I the world's biggest loser? I think I am. Here I am, sitting at home, posting on my BLOG on a friday night. I'm single now, I'm not ready for a new relationship, but I'm certainly ready to have some fun now! But no, here I am, a big loser. :( and the double date for tomorrow? not looking so great. A friend of mine is going out with this guy, but he thinks it's too much of short notice for him to be able to find someone for me. :( and then we thought of someone who could go, a friend's older brother, and it seemed perfect. We have a lot in common, and I know him. he's a nice fellow. But no! he's perfectly willing to come, but he's going to a party tomorrow. And you know what? the more I thought about it, the more fun it would be to go out with him. I feel like such a dork. nobody wants me anymore, except gross people at school. *sob* am I that undesireable??

My mommy is out of town for the weekend, and I might be going on a double date tomorrow with a friend! yippee!

WEE!

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Went to the doctor's yesterday. If you know me really well, you're next question should be which one, lol. This one was the diabetes dr. (that's pronounced die-uh-bee-tees, not die-uh-bee-tus, thankyouverymuch.) THings not going to well, specifically because of my doing. But now I'm on a new plan. (i'm taking lantus now, although that probably means nothing to you). Good news though, since February I've lost 15 pounds, YAY. OK, I think that's it for now . . . btw, I'm charlie brown. (don't feel like posting the link, sorry)

Ok, so am I doomed to be haunted by him forever? Ex-boyfriend means not anymore. It means I shouldn't have to deal with him or think about him. Well, that's fine and dandy, except when I have these stupid back together dreams. I hate them! I'm always so happy in them when we're together, and then I wake up and feel horribly depressed. I wish they would stop. I don't need that. . . . On a happier note, the weather has been sooooo gorgeous lately! It's finally feeling like summer! So after that horribly wonderful josh dream, I had a yummylicious Falcon Ridge dream! Yay! I dreamt it was the day before FR and we had just arrived, and were setting up the tents and stuff, it was great. ANd there were lots of friendly people making music. it was happy happy. :) So I think in that summer spirit I'm gonna go lay out in the sun because I CAN! wee!

Got lots of new undies today! I went shopping, and got 5 bras and 10 pairs of undies. yay. and I even splurged! (with my gramma's money, lol) I got two sexy bras (see through lacey ones, not like the usual kind I get). I got one pair of sexy undies, but damn, that stuff is expensive!! oh well, I'm all decked out now! (of course, I don't happen to be wearing any of that now, but whatever)

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What is it with men and cars? My step-father is anal about me checking the various fluids in my car. Is it really that important that I check the oil every two weeks? Oh well. I'll do it. (maybe)

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I got a new book today too. A Clockwork Orange not too sure what it's about, but I'm sure it will be right up my alley. It's Josh's fave book, so I'll have a good time reading it. that's all ttfn!